Crying
Before my experience on the 15th of August 2005 I cried for almost 2 years and for no reason that I could think of. Even
today I find myself tearing up over almost everything in life. I have come to believe that this process is the result of a kind
of "Home sickness" as we have all been away from home for so long that when we begin to see it again we cry tears of
gratitude and longing for home. If this is happening to you at this time know you are blessed and have earned the right to
go through this process on your journey home.
JC
today I find myself tearing up over almost everything in life. I have come to believe that this process is the result of a kind
of "Home sickness" as we have all been away from home for so long that when we begin to see it again we cry tears of
gratitude and longing for home. If this is happening to you at this time know you are blessed and have earned the right to
go through this process on your journey home.
JC
posted by JC Mac at
10:36 PM
4 Comments:
That is me, right now, I want to go "home" but I am not brave enough
I spent over a year being angry ALL THE TIME for no reason. There is nothing (in my experience) as frustrating as experiencing a powerful, frightening, and dangerous emotion like anger and not having a good reason. I am still angry but it has softened and this has allowed some compassion to sneak in, both for myself and the human condition in general. Is anger just a more violent version of sadness? I am not a violent man. I never have been. In fact I've spent my life putting my feelings second to everyone else's. I suppose that is why I'm feeling so much anger now and why I find it so frightening.
I spent over a year being angry ALL THE TIME for no reason. There is nothing (in my experience) as frustrating as experiencing a powerful, frightening, and dangerous emotion like anger and not knowing why. I am still angry but it has been softened and this has allowed some compassion to sneak in, both for myself and the human condition in general. Is anger just a more violent version of sadness? I am not a violent man. I never have been. In fact I've spent my life putting my feelings second to everyone else's. I suppose that is why I'm feeling so much anger now and why I find it so frightening.
needed to read that, gosh I'm lucky and grateful to receive your wisdom JC, this "thing" can be a tad con"fuss"ing, great to get a bit of reassurance when at times home seems like the only place to be, great to be here though and growing will be worth it all
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