JC Mac's Blog

The Palace

2009-10-25T13:51:00.000-07:00

There were many others with their heads held down that night, all looking and wondering who this new member of their elite club could possibly be. You see no one ends up in this place without and escort and a touch of madness emanating from their face.

And though there is an endless pit of darkness deep inside us all most are to terrified to look, face or own it. But for the less fortunate it appears everywhere in their lives, even as they wonder the halls day and night mumbling and trapped in the karma of their past actions.

Was I one of the blessed ones who could not hide it, I must have been for I was there with them. My love for the human condition grew daily as I wondered the halls with these lost souls and as time went on I could not help but pray with compassion for them all.

Yes, some palaces are built of gold and splendor but this one was constructed from the lost minds of loneliness and isolation that just seemed to send them deeper into the darkness.

The day I walked a free man from this magnificent spiritual training ground sadness came over me as I knew I was going to miss them all.

Heaven and hell has no location.

Crying

2008-12-08T22:36:00.000-08:00

Before my experience on the 15th of August 2005 I cried for almost 2 years and for no reason that I could think of. Even
today I find myself tearing up over almost everything in life. I have come to believe that this process is the result of a kind
of "Home sickness" as we have all been away from home for so long that when we begin to see it again we cry tears of
gratitude and longing for home. If this is happening to you at this time know you are blessed and have earned the right to
go through this process on your journey home.

JC

Integration

2008-09-30T10:20:00.000-07:00

After my experience in 2005 it took almost 3 years to begin to feel like I was part of the human race again. Through trial and error I stumbled through, trying this and trying that until I began to discover what worked for me. If you have experienced some kind of shift in consciousness that has required you to seek ways to integrate yourself back into the world please post your comments I am sure we would all like to know what has worked for others.

Blessings to you all

JC

Costumes

2008-09-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

My six year old son asked me the other day if it would be alright to talk about God.

I said sure what are your thoughts on the matter.

He said, I believe that all people walked around wearing costumes and when they die their costumes fall off.

I said James I have never heard it put that way before, would it be ok to share your thoughts with my friends.

He said OK.